mental illness

“Thoughts are just a different kind of bacteria, colonizing you.”

— John Green, Turtles All the Way Down, Share via Whatsapp

“I m the girl who is lost in space, the girl who is disappearing always, forever fading away and receding farther and farther into the background. Just like the Cheshire cat, someday I will suddenly leave, but the artificial warmth of my smile, that phony, clownish curve, the kind you see on miserably sad people and villains in Disney movies, will remain behind as an ironic remnant. I am the girl you see in the photograph from some party someplace or some picnic in the park, the one who is in fact soon to be gone. When you look at the picture again, I want to assure you, I will no longer be there. I will be erased from history, like a traitor in the Soviet Union. Because with every day that goes by, I feel myself becoming more and more invisible...”

— Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation, Share via Whatsapp

“One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche, Share via Whatsapp

“People with BPD are like people with third degree burns over 90% of their bodies. Lacking emotional skin, they feel agony at the slightest touch or movement.”

— Marsha Linehan, Share via Whatsapp

“Everyone wanted me to feed them that story—darkness to light, weakness to strength, broken to whole. I wanted it, too.”

— John Green, Turtles All the Way Down, Share via Whatsapp

“If you could read my mind, you wouldn t be smiling.”

— Tamara Ireland Stone, Every Last Word, Share via Whatsapp

“The thing about people who are truly and malignantly crazy: their real genius is for making the people around them think they themselves are crazy. In military science this is called Psy-Ops, for your info.”

— David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest, Share via Whatsapp

“There is a particular kind of pain, elation, loneliness, and terror involved in this kind of madness. When you re high it s tremendous. The ideas and feelings are fast and frequent like shooting stars, and you follow them until you find better and brighter ones. Shyness goes, the right words and gestures are suddenly there, the power to captivate others a felt certainty. There are interests found in uninteresting people. Sensuality is pervasive and the desire to seduce and be seduced irresistible. Feelings of ease, intensity, power, well-being, financial omnipotence, and euphoria pervade one s marrow. But, somewhere, this changes. The fast ideas are far too fast, and there are far too many; overwhelming confusion replaces clarity. Memory goes. Humor and absorption on friends faces are replaced by fear and concern. Everything previously moving with the grain is now against-- you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and enmeshed totally in the blackest caves of the mind. You never knew those caves were there. It will never end, for madness carves its own reality.”

— Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness, Share via Whatsapp

“The thing about a spiral is, if you follow it inward, it never actually ends. It just keeps tightening, infinitely.”

— John Green, Turtles All the Way Down, Share via Whatsapp

“I had noticed that both in the very poor and very rich extremes of society the mad were often allowed to mingle freely.”

— Charles Bukowski, Ham on Rye, Share via Whatsapp

“A sick thought can devour the body s flesh more than fever or consumption.”

— Guy de Maupassant, Le Horla et autres contes fantastiques, Share via Whatsapp

“The thing about having a mental breakdown is that no matter how obvious it is that you re having one, it is somehow not obvious to you. I m fine, you think. So what if I watched TV for twenty-four straight hours yesterday. I m not falling apart. I m just lazy. Why it s better to think yourself lazy than think yourself in distress, I m not sure. But it was better. More than better: it was vital.”

— Tara Westover, Educated, Share via Whatsapp

“I compare myself with my former self, not with others. Not only that, I tend to compare my current self with the best I have been, which is when I have been midly manic. When I am my present normal self, I am far removed from when I have been my liveliest, most productive, most intense, most outgoing and effervescent. In short, for myself, I am a hard act to follow.”

— Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness, Share via Whatsapp

“I m so good at beginnings, but in the end I always seem to destroy everything, including myself.”

— Kiera Van Gelder, The Buddha and the Borderline: My Recovery from Borderline Personality Disorder through Dialectical Behavior Therapy, Buddhism, and Online Dating, Share via Whatsapp

“I wanted to tell her that if only something were wrong with my body it would be fine, I would rather have anything wrong with my body than something wrong with my head, but the idea seemed so involved and wearisome that I didn’t say anything. I only burrowed down further in the bed.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Share via Whatsapp

“There is hope, even when your brain tells you there isn t.”

— John Green, Turtles All the Way Down, Share via Whatsapp

“Bipolar robs you of that which is you. It can take from you the very core of your being and replace it with something that is completely opposite of who and what you truly are. Because my bipolar went untreated for so long, I spent many years looking in the mirror and seeing a person I did not recognize or understand. Not only did bipolar rob me of my sanity, but it robbed me of my ability to see beyond the space it dictated me to look. I no longer could tell reality from fantasy, and I walked in a world no longer my own.”

— Alyssa Reyans, Letters from a Bipolar Mother, Share via Whatsapp